I met someone by accident who blew me away blew me away And It was in the darkest of my days When you took my sorrow and you took my pain And buried them away, you buried them away
I wish I could lay down beside you When the day is done And wake up to your face against the morning sun But like everything I've ever known you'll disappear one day So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
Dropped you off at the train station Put a kiss on top of your head And watched you wave And watched you wave Then I went on home to my skyscrapers Neon lights and waiting papers That I call home I call that home
I wish I could lay down beside you When the day is done And wake up to your face against the morning sun But like everything I've ever known You'll disappear one day So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away Away, yeah
Woke up feeling heavy hearted I'm going back to where I started The morning rain The morning rain And though I wish that you were here on that same old road that brought me here It's calling me home It's calling me home
I wish I could lay down beside you When the day is done And wake up to your face against the morning sun But like everything I've ever known You'll disappear one day So I'll spend my whole life hiding my heart away
i get mental block in times like this because i have a very low memory retention
LOL naghalungkat pa ako sa baul para maalala ang mga masasayang alaala
again, i am not very particular when it comes to my favorite memory
i do have a lot of them, but this picture was very memorable for US.
This one-week getaway trip was very memorable for us 'magpi-pinsan' because this trip was not planned and nothing beats the adventure and experience we had. We just stole the van from our Aunt and picked every 'pinsan' who wants to join, then drove the car way up to Luzon. We're actually 15 who were able to join this trip. I think this was on summer of April 2009. We went to Lucena, Laguna, Manila, Cavite, Pampanga, Tarlac, Pangasinan and Baguio.
best stop over @bolinao pangasinan, campfire along the shore til morning
The best stop over was in Bolinao, Pangasinan where we stayed overnight and enjoyed an alienated beach a lot. Instead of going inside the house to rest, we set up a big tent along the shore and fire up some woods til morning. Twas cool and bonding time for us boys in the gang (including empoy who's a tiberts) because we seldom see each other. We drive the night away, make some noise, drink and smoke, and take some tipsy and funny pictures that are all case sensitive *LOL*. If i could just post all the pictures here for you to see how abnormal we were and how crazy it was. I miss the jamming.
last stop over of the trip @baguio city behind is the beautiful baguio cathedral
Our last stop was in Baguio City where we also stayed overnight before we go back to Bicol. We visit all the amazing tourist spots in baguio, eat all their famous delicacies, buy souvenirs, foods and shirts. This was my first time to see baguio and i was very amazed by how the entire city looks like. If there's another place i want to live, i'll consider baguio as one of the top choices. What we enjoyed here a lot was the weather and the activities you can do the whole day. Baguio has a lot in-stored for us trippers, we really plan to go back. ___________________________________________________ *SMILE* absolutely, when i am with my cousins i don't feel any stress and i forget all the worries i have. Foods and drinks are always overflowing. We do whatever we want and surely everybody will cooperate as long as it will bring happiness to the gang. I can say that "WE'RE THE BEST MAGPIPINSAN IN TOWN"
They say that "the songs you like to hear will tell something about you". So i just wanna share with you guys the songs i listen every time i go to bed and when i'm inside the bathroom this month of September. This is not opt to be a reflection of who i am but it can be i guess. Things are getting better for me just by hearing the songs on my playlist. Thanks to those artists for making such wonderful songs that makes every heart skip a beat. :)))
1. SEPTEMBER - Chris Daughtry This song sucks a bit. This reminds me of my past that i badly wish to turn back this very moment of my life. I remember those people who became a big part of me, of who is Nico today. So much memories stored in the month of September. I first heard this song on PGT and to find out it was Daughtry it was also quite amazing because he did make a good sound to my ears. This topped my playlist.
Of all the things I still remember
Summer's never looked the same
The years go by and time just seems to fly
But the memories remain
2. BEST THING I NEVER HAD - Beyonce
I'm a sucker to ballad-ish R&B songs and this one, Beyonce definitely killed it! Oh btw, congrats to you and your man for the destiny's child! Anyways i just love this song for no reason. LOL actually there's a reason behind but i'm afraid to discuss it here.
I wanted you back
I'm so through with that
Cause honestly you turned out to be the best thing I never had
You turned out to be the best thing I never had
And I'm gon' always be the best thing you never had
Oh I bet it sucks to be you right now
3. CRAWL - Chris Brown
Another Chris on my playlist. It took me years before i figure out what's the title and who's the singer of thing song. Until i borrowed my friend's cellphone and found this on her most played songs. This song speaks a lot and some lines strikes straight through my naive heart. I don't want to memorized the lyrics coz i can't take some words to sink in my nerves.
Why did I change the pace
Hearts were never meant to race
I always felt the need for space
But now I can't reach your face
So where
Are you standing now
Are you in the crowd of my faults
Love, can you see my hand?
I need one more chance
We can still have it all
4. 6 MONTHS - Hey Monday
This has been one of my all time favorite. This is one of the few songs i know that screams but still pleasant to hear. When i listen to this song, i don't actually focus on the tone but rather to its lyrics. Just try to read the whole lyrics and surely you'll fall in love. I also love Hey Monday's CANDLE but this song i was better.
You're the direction I follow to get home
When I feel like I can't go on, you tell me to go
And it's like I can't feel a thing without you around
And don't mind me if I get weak in the knees
'cause you have that effect on me, you do
5. MOVES LIKE JAGGER - Maroon 5
Maroon 5 definitely nailed it! The first time i was able to hear this in MTV i got to like it very much already and instantly i downloaded it on the net. This is a song that seems to keep my body alive and grooving. I even memorized the song in less than 15 minutes and every time i'm in school this is my LSS. I think this ranked 2nd on my list.
You wanted control
So we waited
I put on a show
Now I make it
You say I'm a kid
My ego is big
I don't give a shit
And it goes like this
6. YOU AND I - Lady Gaga
Hail Lady Gaga for making countless number of meaningful music and at the same time Rock! Just don't mind her music videos. LOL! You and I is my favorite song among all her albums. I love her electronica genre that made her unique and one of a kind. If you have time to repeat this song at least three times you'll hear yourself saying You and I, and by saying YOU you think of someone special.
It’s been a long time since I came around
Been a long time but I’m back in town
This time I’m not leaving without you
You taste like whiskey when you kiss me, oh
I’d give anything again to be your baby doll
This time I’m not leaving without you
7. NOT LIKE THE MOVIES - Katy Perry
Katy Perry has indeed contributed much in the music industry. Thru her music many people are getting inspired, like me. This song builds an inspiration and wake me up from my day dream. There's also one song of her that up until now i can't barely stand to hear. Like Lady Gaga she definitely Rock but in different manner.
'Cause I know you're out there,
And you're, you're looking for me.
It's a crazy idea that you were made,
Perfectly for me you'll see.
8. SUPER BASS - Nicki Minaj
I so like Nicki Minaj for being brave to wear dresses that are out of this world. She looks like a special creature in the music industry that gives life to new artists. *bows down* to her speedy voice. At first i don't like this song but when i saw someone dancing in the beat of this music, i can't stop myself too from dancing when nobody's around. The rhythm is cool that throws all the stress in life.
See I need you in my life for me to stay
No, no, no, no, no I know you'll stay
No, no, no, no, no don't go away
Boy you got my heartbeat runnin' away
Don't you hear that heartbeat comin' your way
Oh it be like, boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
Can't you hear that boom, badoom, boom, boom, badoom, boom, bass
9. CALIFORNIA KING BED - Rihanna
I noticed that most songs in my playlist were sang by female artist that makes it 'paGirl' WTH i don't give a damn. I'm not just the time of guy who prefer hardcore and punk, i go for mainstream that does not create noise. Anyways, Rihanna was very beautiful with her music video of this song, aside from the song itself who's more beautiful. When i hear this song i always think of someone special that seems too far despite the close distance that only separates us. Enough with the drama. LMAO
Just when I felt like giving up on us
You turned around and gave me one last touch
That made everything feel better
And even then my eyes got wetter
So confused wanna ask you if you love me
But I don't wanna seem so weak
Maybe I've been California dreaming
10. OO - Up Dharma Down
The only tagalog song that made in to my list this month of September. To think, Oo always made to include in my playlist since January or February. One of the best song for me in the Philippine music industry. It tells something about love - a person who truly love another person. Maybe those broken and devastated by love might relate their feelings to this song especially to those people who can't let go of the past and still hoping for that person to come back. I too can relate.
Kung ikaw at ako
Ay tunay na bigo sa laro na ito
Ay dapat bang sumuko
Sana hindi ka lang pala aking nakilala
Kung alam ko lang ako'y masasaktan ng ganito
Sana'y nakinig na lang ako sa nanay ko
11. SO BLUE - Sino Sikat?
I once heard this song while watching battle of the bands in our school. I thought it was an original song composed by the engineering band. This song was actually high school and composed by Filipino artists said by my buddy but it's new to my ears and i kinda like it much. What i like about the song was the title 'So Blue' and the repetition of the lyrics. It chills me while playing it every morning.
I see my sigh, floating up to heaven in the sky
Full of, full of shattered hopes and bleeding dreams
I take a number for prescription for this melancholy
No more, no more I brush away my…
I am patience, perseverance
Come and take my hand, live forever
12. SOMEONE LIKE YOU, ROLLING IN THE DEEP, MAKE YOU FEEL MY LOVE, DON'T YOU REMEMBER, TURNING TABLES, TAKE IT ALL, RUMOUR HAS IT CHASING PAVEMENTS, LOVESONG, DAY DREAMS, BEST FOR LAST and etc. - Adele
Of course Adele will always be in my playlist. If i could just include all her songs here, then why not. Above are just some of her more 30 songs. I'm totally crazy in love with her voice. I can't explain how much i praise her for making such inspirational and classy music. For me she is the best singer of our generation. She brings back the real sound of music and the real essence of it - which is to give hope and entertainment, and a room for expression for a subtle feelings. :DDD
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...and those are the sounds that I really enjoyed listening to! What are your recent favorite songs?!
thru time we became close coz i - the open headed among 3 boys
though sometimes we're the one who usually argue in the house
aside from that everything turns to be better when she came
neither i bother to ask my parents to how or where she came from
anyways i can see how much she cares and loves for each of us
i don't see any reason at all for me to search for the answers
besides my mom will never be the only girl in our home.
Moreover, i should be very thankful to her the most (aside from my mom) because she's the one who sends me to a private university and supports me for what i need to pursue my studies and my desires. Sometimes she also tolerates me in my 'luho' in life. There's only one thing that i cannot agree with her until now. It was the time when she decided to marry her long time boyfriend which i am really against. I absolutely don't like that fuckin' guy for my ate. I wish she could just marry another guy as long as not that man whose name starts with letter G. But what else can i do, it's her life and i see she's deeply in love with him. Only i can do is to watch over their relationship because i'm afraid that my ate might be hurt by that earthling. (hope she'll not be able to read this post) Fortunately, my ate is currently working abroad in her husband was left here in the country. For the meantime i can assure myself she's safe and will still able to support my study. This coming November, she even promised to buy me a new DSLR camera that i badly needed. I also promised her to graduate this coming March, and that's why she'll be coming home and will be watching me go over the stage even without flying colors, but still walking proud that she's my Ate Madel. :DDD
Love lots ate and sometimes i miss you especially the foods you always cook for me. Keep safe always!
Indeed, life is not about looking back and wishing that today is the same with the past. Life is about moving on, accepting changes and looking forward to what makes you stronger and more complete. Life is sometimes about letting go, setting free the things that makes you unhappy and does not deserve to stay in your life anymore.
Last night, we had a plan to visit my friend in their house because her father was dead. It was already 11:00pm when i arrived for i have to travel back in our town because i have my class in the city. I was not able to join them in the ride going to the wake place, and just when i enter the place i noticed some of the eyes were looking at me. I cannot held my head up and i was already unease with the feeling. And finally one of my friend tapped me in my back to say Hi, i think she's the only one who was able to recognize me. I don't know where to position myself in the crowd.I feel like i'm a different person. The people i expect to be there have left already a minute before i reached the place. So i just sit on a chair observing people discreetly.
First, i saw a friend who used to hold my hand before - even the first time we met. We're no longer close maybe because we never keep ourselves intouch with each other. I never pushed to chat with her but as i looked at her, she grown into a beautiful lady but her aura stays the same and she's still the friend i met years ago. I also heard her saying 'si nick' and caught her glancing at me as if she want to talk. We never did, i'm too aloof to start a conversation and besides i don't know too much about her.
Also, i saw a relative-friend whom i never had a close companionship since high school. There's no problem with me, maybe he's just uncomfortable talking to me. He just say 'kumusta na nick?' but we're good friends it's just that we seldom talk. Happy to see that the man i knew before was still the man i know in the present. There's only few updates on him and sort of modification on a subject which is sensitive to discuss. I'm also happy to see him very happy and proud of what he is right now.I can see a good person in him, a true-lover and a nice friend.
Next, i saw familiar faces (some i forgot the names). They were all sitting around the table and as usual they all drink and smoke. They asked me 'nick madya na digdi kana magtukaw!' i refrained going inside the table. I even refused to drink and smoke. They already matured physically but the subject of their jokes were still the same. I could not relate and discuss what is on my mind. They could still laugh and bang each other like before. They rarely talk to me and seldom ask me for a picture. I don't know what's on my face that they were all afraid to talk to me. I never dared to socialize except with one new buddy who tries hard to communicate with me but everytime he talks i don't find any answer to myself.
Then, i saw my two former teacher in high school. They were still the same, they're still best friend, and their smiles never change. I found myself walking to where they stay. I greeted them and had a plain talk about me in college. They said 'oh mr. nick dino' you seemed to be a bit thin and look quite different. By the time they left they asked me to invite them on my graduation celebration. I said yes with a smile on my face.
And i saw my very good friend Tin-Tin. I'm glad to see her smiling even though it's very hard to accept the death of her papa. She's really Tin-Tin who cries hard, but after loosing for a bit she will surely be back as a strong and jolly woman. I hold her hand as much as i can because that's the only thing i could offer her. I don't even know how to comfort someone, so just before i leave i hugged her tight. However, what marked on my head was the phrase she told me "ibahon kana kaya nick!." Only four words but it created a big impact on my whole being.
*deep sigh*
To see all of them once again after years or months was a reenergizer to my heart. But what happened to me? I suddenly asked myself before going to sleep last night. Where is Nico now? How is he now? Who is Nico now?
Can someone tell me what's happening? Nico is still here. I am with you guys can't you see me. I always see to it that i go home weekly. I'm fine though not that so fine. I'm better and on my way to be the best. Don't you like it? I may completely change physically but i don't think it change also the real thing in me. Hmmmn it's just that i don't drink and smoke now, i don't talk when no one begins to talk to me, and i prefer to be away from the crowd. Yes i know you all change and so with me, but why is that the change that happened to me was different from your change?
For once, i want to go back in the past where i am loved/accepted by everybody, happy and no worries, free and always excited, then i will just live there for the entire years of my life. I miss to be called 'NICK'.
Nick who use to be NICE, INNOCENT, CUTE and KIND. Apart from that, all i can remember are good things in his past. Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick Nick where are you now? Everybody in the house is looking for you. They miss you a lot, they miss the real and the old you. We'll be waiting for you no matter what, because it's never to late to have a life and never too late too late to change one.
Minsan lang to... Pramis ngayon lang... Hayaan nyo na po ako...
Hahaha
Natatawa ako sa sarili ko ngayong araw, kilala ko naman ang sarili ko, hindi naman ako yung tipo ng lalaki na nagkakagusto o naaattract basta basta sa isang tao. Pero ano yung kanina lang, ano yun bigla bigla nalang na hindi ko inaasahan? Nakita ko sya, nasilayan sya ng aking malabong mga mata. Dumating sya, ah hindi ako ang dumating at habang papalapit ako ay unti-unti kong naaaninag ang kagandahan ng kanyang mukha. Hindi ko mapigilan tumingin sayo. Hindi ko makontrol na hindi lumingon kung saan ka nakapuwesto. Hindi ko maitago sa sarili ko ang pagnanais na sana tinititigan mo rin ako. *pakensheet* Ano ba itong nangyayari sa akin. Alam ko dati na kitang hinahangaan at walang kakaiba doon. Pero ano ba talaga ang hiwagang dala mo kanina lang? Hindi ko mawari basta masaya ako kasabay ng pag-asenso ng Thesis ko. Oh ikaw na, ikaw na talaga. Hahayaan kitang magpaikot ikot sa aking isipan, magpagulong gulong ang larawan ng iyong mukha sa aking ulong hibang, at magnasang pumasok hangang sa aking panaginip. Hay nakakaasar lang ng walang dahilan pero salamat parin dahil sa paraan mo nadagdagan ng kulay ang matamlay na puso ko. Di ko naman sinasabi na mahal na kita, sadyang kakaiba lang talaga ang hatid mong charisma. Ang appeal mo *shit* kahit na ibang tao di ka pansin, mas okay yun para ako lang ang may alam at nakadiskubre ng liwanag na iyong taglay.
I'm a flirt *imma flirt* he is a flirt *nico was a flirt* can't help staring at someone's face, shame on me but i guess no one noticed, LOL i really did and atleast i'm honest. WTH i'm not so over with the face, it's freakin nice and gorgeous despite your haggardness. *arrrggh* can't resist beybi to stare at you, why can't i erase your face on my mind, it keeps me smiling dear, your loving eyes, your sexy nose, & your freakin lips, they take my breath away. But i guess you are just a dream.
Kung magkataon muli na magkasalubong man ang aming mga mata, sana mapansin ang kislap na taglay nito dala ng paghanga kong lubos sakanya. :DDD
Hindi na kita maalis sa aking isipan, at ngayon pati sa aking blog ika'y umi-extra, ang kulit mo, kung makapang-adik ka wagas, nakakabaliw para kang bubble gum kung dumikit ang hirap tanggalin. Hay naku praning na ba ako? Okay lang, salamat parin kung alam mo lang. SALAMAT SALAMAT SALAMAT ika'y napadaan. Huwag ka ng babalik pa baka sa sunod mong pagdaan tisudin na kita para siguradong sa akin ka talaga babagsak.
finally after weeks and weeks of haggardness finally after extensive research and readings we had finally after all the gutom and gutom ulit moments finally after revisions after revision finally after getting stuck up with mess and finally after getting my head cracked
FINALLY my Thesis is growing up!
i can see my self now on graduation with my friends i can see how fulfilling it was to have 37 pages of writing i can imagine how blessed i am to have such brain. HAHAHAHAHA i wanna laugh til i drop.
it's not enough to say that i've already moved on, that i'm so over with you, and that i don't love you no more because honest to goodness i know deep inside me i'm still in love with you. though not that intense anymore but the point was the feeling is still there. it's been a long time since we parted ways, i've been to many new experiences and undergone so many changes physically. you know what sometimes i regret to indulge into this crazy game called love. i was destructed and broken because of my foolish and self-satisfying acts. i pity you for having such demon in your life. i'm ambiguous and is not easy to understand by anyone, my words hurt, i am careless and all. however i must tell you that you're lucky to have me even for once. i love you three times as i love my self, i care for you as to the point that i don't mind others anymore, and i gave you what i know i can't give to others. *sigh* nonetheless, how come you left me so bad, you've promised me to stay every single day. i'm not asking too much because what i only want from you this time is your presence as a true friend. can't we be friends once again because we're good buddies in the first place. i know we are both ignored and broken but please be kind to me. you're still special to me and that will never change. you're the very first one to take my breath away and love me for who i am. i'm so grateful to have you no matter what. it seems like we're miles apart now even though i know you're just out there. this blog post was actually meant to be just a quotations but because my hypothalamus is overflowing with so much emotions, i can't stop writing how painful for me that a special friend before was looking at me as if i'm a stranger. no one is to be blame between the two of us, and i don't regret to have you after all the discernment i had. i just wish the best for you always, i always as always hope for your HAPPINESS beybi. you should keep on SMILING.
Minsan ang boring na pumasok sa school lalo na kung paulit ulit nalang ang mga nakikita mo, ulit ulit ang mga teacher kakasermon dahil hindi nagbasa at gumawa ng assignments, ulit ulit kakasuot ng ampanget at mainit na uniform, ulit ulit ang pagkain sa canteen, hay naku parang unli lang, tapos yung mga crush mo naman once in a blue moon lang kung makasalubong mo kasi bored din pumasok, hay buhay!
Ano kaya kung sa pag-advance ng technology at sa paunti-unting pagiging liberated ng mga tao ay ang pagbabago rin ng mga kaganapan at sistema sa loob ng mga paaralan. *nice idea* hayaan nyo pag ako naging SSG president papataubin ko ang mga platform ng ibang kandidato, sisimulan ko sa Ateneo de Naga ang pagbabago para gayahin din ng ibang schools. *malay natin epektib* hahaha *Sample campaign speech* Magandang araw po sainyong lahat, isang pagbati mula sainyong Presidente sa hinaharap, at salamat sa inyong pagdating, ngayon nais kong malaman nyo ang aking mga plano sa ating mahal na paaralan, ang aking mga adhikain upang mas maging masaya at mahikayat ang bawat estudyante na pumasok sa iskul araw-araw kahit holiday, perfect attendance ika nga. ----> Mga bagay na imumungkahi kong magkaroon sa Ateneo pati narin sa lahat ng schools sa buong Pinas para ebribadi HAPPY.
Elevators at escalators
Wi-fi na walang restrictions
Fountain na softdrinks ang lumalabas
Aircon hanggang sa hallway
Clearance sa mga teachers na yung mga estudyante naman ang pipirma
Grade para sa subject na break/recess/activity period
May flag ceremony uli pero araw-araw may guest na artista
Free starbucks coffee every morning
Silid tulugan
University honor roll na pababaan ng grades
Film viewing sa tuwing may bagong labas na pelikula
Intrams na ka-team mates mga sports icons
Birthday gift sa bawat estudyante galing sa admin and staff
Isang building ng mga sikat na restaurants offering student meals
Enrollment gamit ang facebook
I.D na digital depende sa new update na vain pix mo
Every quiz may premyong 1 million para motivated mag-aral
Lockers na may dry wash
Robots na taga pulot ng mga kalat
Undergraduate thesis tungkol sa trending issues sa twitter
Student directory na pwedeng mag-iwan ng message sa crush mo
Gelpren/Boypren mo teacher mo!
to be updated.....
Oh ano! inaasahan ko po ang mainit nyong suporta sa darating na eleksyon at aasahan ko po na pangalan ko ang una sa inyong listahan, hahaha manalo pa kaya ako, mmmn isang walang kwentang blog na naman ito, nakakatamad kasi pumasok bukas after a very long weekend. :DDD
i always look forward every year for the month of September, maybe because there are so many holidays that awaits us especially here in Naga, maybe because it's my mom's and my little brother's birth month, maybe because -ber months bring the atmosphere of love and joy, or maybe because there are a lot of memories in my stupid past that are worth remembering... i really don't know, it seems that for me September is a special month.
whatever! September brings nostalgia to my stoned heart *aaarrrggh* i am moving on little by little, i am trying to be the best in every possible way, i am creating a new life filled with happiness *sigh* i'm starting to get dramatic again, anyways just want to share to you my LSS this past few days, i want to dance in the rhythm and melody of this music, i want to dance in the rain and together with the cold rain i will cry hard to ease the pain i keep for a very very long period of time.
I AM JUAN NICOLAS i should be worthy until the end. n_n now playing...
sometimes you just can't tell someone how you really feel, not because you don't know why, not because you don't know your purpose, not because you don't trust them, but because you can never really find the right words to make them UNDERSTAND. *kuha mo*
hindi ako inuusig ng aking conscience ser sa pagpasok ko po ng late 7:30 ang klase namin sayo pero 8:00 na kung dumating ako matatapos na ang semester wala parin akong natututunan sa philo. kasi naman hindi ka masyadong interesado kung maturo may itsura ka ng at ang taas ng ilong, pero aanhin namin yun ni isang beses hindi ka man lang gumamit ng power point presentation ngayon nagtuturo ka ng letseng conscience at nakaupo lang paano ako gaganahan pumasok, kung ikaw mismo nagpopoetry reading lang oh ayan nagsulat ka naman kunwari "a doubtful law does not bind" tapos ngayon may isa kang kwento at kung sino ang may pangalan na john john ang pangalan ko, tamad din ako at hindi ako magtataas ng kamay para sayo buti nalang tinatyagaan ka ng babaeng epal sa likod ko, gustong maka A sayo 'anong kinalaman mo daw sa utang ng tatay mo?' at ngayon nagkagulo shit paki ko sa mga utang nyo, mayaman ang nanay ko haha halos isang oras pa akong magtitiis dito, bagot na bagot na ako di naman ako makapagrecite sapagkat walang interaction na nagaganap dito waaah tulungan mo ako! wala na rin ako maisulat, blah blah blah blah uusigin ka na ng konsensya mo... TAMAD KA, TAMAD AKO KAYA LATE KA MAGPAPALATE RIN AKO Matatapos ang sem na to magiging kasing gwapo mo na ako Pagpapantasyahan ng mga babaeng estudyante mo kunyari lang na nakikinig pero panay lang ang titig sayo HAHAHA kung saan saan na napupunta no offense ser, ako yata ang may problema! _______________________________________________
ang sama sama ko talaga pati mga teacher sinasama ko na sa blog ko, haha okay lang yan di naman nila ito mababasa, anyways thanks pala ser no exam til now, asahan ko ang A ko na marka ah. :DDD
hindi naman ako yung tipo ng tao na babad lagi sa inuman sa katunayan nga bibihira lang ako kung pumatol sa alak minsan lang ako uminom at makipag-inuman sa buhay ko pero ngayong gabi sagot ko ang inuman naming magpinsan ewan ko ba kung anong pumasok sa kukote ko at nagyaya ako siguro dahil mapera ako ngayon at feeling ko nasa kondisyon ako nakailang bote na kami ng beer, siguro pangatlo o apat ko na to pauli-ulit parin umiikot sa isipan ko ang mga pangyayari kanina hindi ko mawari ang sarili: sa dapat gawin at reaksyon na ipakita pinagtatagpo pa yata kami ni tadhana, pero sa mga di inaasahan mga di inaasahan na muli kaming magtatagpo, at hindi siguro dapat
kakagaling ko lang sa banyo para umihi at nakailang tungga na ako nakaidlip na nga ang pinsan ko, lasing na siguro ang loko-loko pero ako buhay parin na nag-iisip ng tungkol sayo, tungkol sa atin hay nagmumukhang gago na naman ako, at nagsalita ang pinsan ko "16 daw at ewan di ko na naintindihan" siguro sa 16 may magaganap aasahan ko ang pagdating at pagkikita nating muli sa darating na 16 sana makapag-usap na tayo ng maayos at ibuhos mo ng lahat sakin handa naman akong tanggapin basta para sa ikaluluwag mo kasalanan ko naman talaga siguro, kasalanan ko ang lahat lahat pasensya kana kung nagkakaganito ako, baliw na yata ako nag-iilusyon parin ako na balang araw tayo parin sa huli sa huli na kahit walang ginagawa at pinagpapaguran ngayon puro kasi ako ganito at ganito, hindi ako marunong magmahal tulad ng pagmamahal na karaniwang naibibigay ng normal na tao kung mababasa mo man ito sana naintindihan mo ang nais ko.
hindi ko naman ipinagkakait ang sarili ko na maging magkaibigan tayo muli muli sa pagkakaibigan naman talaga nagsimula ang lahat at kung di papayagan ni tadhana, sana magkaibigan parin sa huli kausapinm mo ako, magalit ka, basta marinig ko lang boses mo lasing na siguro ako!
"ngayon ko lang naunawaan kung paano magmahal, pagkatapos kitang pakawalan.."
hindi naman dapat ako nagsusulat ng blog entry ngayon, hindi kasi ako makatulog, ni datnan ng antok. paulit-ulit lang ako kapipindot sa aking cellphone september 3 na ngayon dapat maayos na ako sapagkat september 2 ang binigay na deadline ko hindi ko na kailangan magkwento pinapalaya ko na kayong lahat lahat ng lungkot sa isip at puso ko ayos na ako!
tanungin mo ako bukas ah kung kumusta na ako! *SMILE*
Remorse never scratched my system. I love you and it won't make any sense if I say I don't. I'm hurt. What else will you expect me to feel? Oh well, HURT, was an understatement. But would you believe that I'm happy for you? That made some fucking difference. I'm happy when you're happy. So what about my ever static affection? I'll get some doctor to help me out this shit. As I always say, "I'll be just fine...pretending I'm not"haha I'll be better soon. *sigh It has been an illusion. You must have told me earlier. I will accept it really, like, do I have any other choice? Bitterness? Hard feelings? Of course! Tao rin ako, dude! But I'll still be your friend. Just give me some time. How life played tricks on me. So, I guess, this will be the end of my illusion.Eto na 'yung most awaited moment mo... "move on and get a life, youll die waiting for that freaking guy." Thank you. :) ________________________________________________ i guess this is the end i must say, i may not totally forget you but surely you've been one the happiest event that ever happened to me.
