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other says that we should have to be tight-lipped about our past

but for me it is important to know your past especially if we have that distinct connection.

experience and truth about the past might hurt or affect the present situation

but it's part of knowing and relatively it can contribute to a much stronger relationship.

why is it hard to reminisce the weak past?

after all you did had a great time until you realized that you made the wrong choice.

a certain reading material just answered me:

it's because...

You'll be turned off - we all make mistakes. Understandably, we'll suffer from being judged. But, what hurts the most is when the ones giving the judgmental look are the people we care for the most. Like, let's say, the person we're in a relationship with. Baka iwanan niya pa ako pag nalaman niya ang totoo.
You'll keep bringing it up - imagine how much bigger the fights would be if she knew about the mistakes I made before. In other words, we're not too keen on loading bullets you can shoot us with. Sure, the past helps explain the present. But, in problem-solving, focusing on the present issue is a lesson we both need to learn.
You'll be unreasonably jealous - being jealous is good. But, when it gets to the point of paranoia, it just complicates what could be a peaceful relationship. When your partner shares his/her past with you, s/he trusts you with it. The next best step is to reciprocate the trust.
It's not that important (for us) - this is perhaps the most common reaction you can get when asked about the past. And, it's exactly what annoys you, right? However, someone said, "my past helped me become who I am right now. I'm not sure you'd embrace my past by the same way I do. Just love me for who I am."

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nevertheless, what's wrong if i'll be turned off, if i'll keep on bringing the idea, if i'll get jealous and though it's not important to us? that's just a proof that i want to know more about you, that i'm concern about your past, that i'm willing to help you become a better person now, and after all i will still love you.

you let me love you, so let me know and be informed regarding your history,

don't let me be the one to discover the things you want to hide from me,

perhaps it happened already and I know how to forgive and forget,

so don't refuse to reveal it all to me.
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pero sige panalo na kayo, magpaparaya ako ngayon.

sabagay, oo may point naman talaga kayo.

Kalabaw Lang Ang Hindi Tatanda

Ang tao kagaya ng puno sa paglipas ng panahon lumalaki at tumatanda. Parang bulaklak din na yumayabong at unti-unting nalalagas. Ganyan ang buhay sa mundo mabilis ang takbo, kaya dapat ariin mo at sulitin ang bawat oras at minuto na ibinigay ng tadhana saiyo. Datapwat sa musmos na kaisipan maaring hindi pa natin ito lubos batid, kaya sa pagtanda maraming bagay na gusto mong balikan at sariwain. Minsan nga kulang nalang hilingin mo sa langit na ika’y ibalik sa pagkabata.

Sino nga naman ang ayaw manatiling bata: sa panlabas na kaanyuan, sa puso, sa diwa at sa pakiramdam? Talagang napakasarap at napakasayang maging bata. May magkailang bagay na pawang bata ang tanging nakadarama hangang sa ika’y magbinata o magdalaga na.

Dahil dyan gusto ko muling maging bata. Ang bata walang inaalalang problema puro lang laro at kung ano-anong walang kabuluhang bagay. Walang gaanong pangangailangan sapagkat Koko krunch lang at kendi sapat na. Wala pa masyadong pakiramdam dahil laging masaya at nakatawa. Wala yung taong itinuturing na espesyal kasi lahat ng tao tingin ay kalaro at kaibigan. Nakakalungkot man ding isipin, madaming bagay sa aking pagkabata ang nais kong balikan.

Gusto ko ulit maging bata dahil ayaw ko ng pakiramdam ng isang nagbibinata. Hindi ko naman masabing masakit at mahirap pero nandun yung bugso na TUUGSSSH na di ko maipaliwanag. Naiirita nga ako minsan dahil kahit sarili ko hindi ko na maintindihan. Ganito ba talaga? Kung oo pwedeng huwag nalang? Gusto kong maglaro muli ng habulan at tago-taguan. Gusto ko maligo at magbabad sa ilalim ng langit habang umuulan. Gusto ko makipagpikunan hangang isa samin ay maasar. Gusto kong matulog kung saan ako abutan ng antok. Gusto ko yung easy easy lang walang magtatangka bumatok. Gusto ko magsisigaw, magsayaw at kumanta kahit walang dahilan. Wala lang nasanay lang siguro akong maging bata at siguro natatakot akong tumanda, ayaw kong matulad sa mga puno at mga bulaklak.

(isa na siguro ito sa mga huling sulatin na aking gagawin bago ko tuluyang lisanin ang pagiging bata at ang ateneo. Okay lang salamat parin dahil minsan ako'y naging bata, salamat FILED003 "thank you Ibarbia".)

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