Read across the web and found it very funny but indeed true. Maybe this is one of the many reasons or the best explanation why i can't stand a relationship for too long. I hope this will not offend anyone from the opposite sex. 


HOW TO MAKE A MAN HAPPY

1. Feed him
2. Sleep with him
3. Leave him with peace
4. Don't check his phone (Msgs)
5. Don't bother him with his movements

I deplore
     being ignored.

For---

I am not a bore!

But it's perplexing sweet,
      and quite sexy too---
      to be ignored,
      ignored by you.


                       -Lang Leav

Again...
And again.

I could not put into a clear context what i am feeling right now. After a weekend of stress-free life and bonding with our new found friends, i could not grasp what's happening again with my own psyche.

The feeling is heavy. The feeling is exhausting. The feeling is f*cking helpless and disturbing.

*Arghh*

I just want to go home, or ride a longboard, that would be awesome. Maybe i'm just having my seasonal mood change again and i think it's getting worst.

I want to know!

I know that I don't own you,
     and perhaps I never will,
     so my anger when you're with her,
     I have no right to feel.


I know that you don't owe me,
     and I shouldn't ask for more;
     I shouldn't feel so let down,
     all the time when you don't call.


What I feel --- I shouldn't show you,
     so when you're around I won't;
     I know I've no right to feel it --
     but it doesn't mean I don't.


                               -Lang Leav

There are a few moments in our lives where we can not clearly describe how we really feel. It's just plain blank and emotionless. You can't even think of simple things which will probably make you feel a bit more lively. It's a feeling that i can't even elaborate into details because it's too vague to understand.

Crap!

Holy sh*t!

Fvck!

What am i saying?

Maybe i'm having my seasonal mood swings, and this time i don't know what kind of mood i am having. Maybe i lacked sleep last night, or maybe i forgot to bring my soul with me while i was dreaming. The situation where i am standing right now is too much for me to take.

Oh i should stop writing because i might go out of one's tree. The silence and obscurity within me is killing me now.

P.S
Next time we meet, please do give me a hug. I need and missed that badly, it brings me sanity!

"Whatever you’re going through, it isn’t a lonely venture."

          Trust me, everything will be just fine maybe not now but maybe someday in your most unexpected moment. I hope you can make it in any way, because in some parts of this big big Universe many people are experiencing the same things as you do; or even carrying much much heavier loads than you have.

          If you feel a bit overloaded and you feel like everything insides you are meant to explode any minute. Just stop for a minute and smile. Maybe sing if you can. Dance in the middle of the rainfall. Drink until you drop. Travel to an island you've never heard. Don't be afraid to cry and try unusual things because you'll never know what kind of relief and happiness these could bring to you.

          But if you really feel like breaking up or killing yourself already, call me maybe? Maybe i could offer my shoulders both left and right, whichever you like. I'm also giving a free hug!

           ^_______^